Ah, a tale as old as Neocities: a user creating a super awesome blog, making one post, and leaving into the abysses, never to be found again. However, I do have more than one excuse for leaving this blog pretty much behind. I wouldn’t quite put it as high as the “Ao3 author curse”, but a lot of things sure happened. I – Why was this blog created? This is going to sound silly, but bear with me. See, last year, while recovering from a super awesome transgender surgery, I realized something: I had no freaking friends in real life! So, I got a recommendation of a super awesome queer bar in my city I went to that very night. I’ll admit: probably one of the best decisions of my life. I continued going there for several months, and got acquainted with its people. Especially one person in particular, who volunteered here. Long story short: I fell in love. And as it turns out, that person had a website of their own! I found it very cool, and I already had attempted to make a website in the past, but ambitious yet lazy as I was, CSS got my ass. So, this time around, I opted for a much simpler approach… and It worked! The website was now online. So, yes, this website was born because I wanted to impress someone. But did it work? And why did I abandon the website, if it was already in my projects to make one? II – A follow up of events. According to the website, I last updated it on April 7th 2026. I’ll try my best to explain what happened while still keeping some of my life private. Quickly after, two wonderful things happened: I started going out with my now partner, and I got upcoming dates for an internship in a veterinary clinic- the latter being a requirement to candidate for my dream studies for becoming a paraveterinary (= helping the veterinary in their tasks, welcoming clients, keeping the place clean, restraining animals…). About three weeks had passed, and I was writing an upcoming blog post, in between my usual activities of volunteering at an animal shelter and not doing much due to a lack of motivation, and extreme fear of failure (as in, not even playing video games because I was afraid to not be “perfect” at them and fail at them). Then, I had a crash out. I won’t go into details, but I couldn’t stand what I saw every day in my home, and after three days of planing, I moved in an emergency with my partner. After that, I had an internship to attend to. It went well, but I was fully busy for two weeks, and I wasn’t hired afterwards, sadly, meaning I’d have to find another place to hire me. For context, here, the paraveterinary studies requires you to work a job in parallel of your studies, in order to get practical experience. I had spent a lot of time applying in as many places as I could, plan my future after the move out (I couldn’t stay there forever), and changing all my papers due to my transition. I had also continued volunteering at that animal shelter, resumed contact with online friends after a fight… and hey, my partner and I even went on vacations for a few days! Which, uh, was eventful to say the least (stranded in a train station of a country we didn’t speak the language of the first day. Thank goodness we fell on English speakers). III – Where I stand now. I have a clear vision of what I’ll do in the future: search for a veterinary work place, and if that fails, by September start working: either a regular work, or a less paid mission thingy, which however makes me work less hours and give me some advantages afterwards. Either ways, I have to work by September- why? Because I started the procedures to get help having my own home :D I also started volunteering at another place I was sort of already an half-volunteer at anyway. And while some things still suck, I feel I stand at a better place than two months ago. Finally, I’m trying to de-clutter my life a little bit: trying to sort my files and keep only what’s needed, sorting through my stuff, and noting the reasons why I use my phone on the daily, and see how I can replace those uses. My ultimate goal would be to only use it for what cannot be replaced, or in case everything can be replaced, stop using a smartphone the day it breaks, and replace it with a dumber one. And in case you where thinking I speak like a Linux user, you’d be totally right (using Mint currently, but thinking of switching back to Arch). IV - Will the old posts make a come back? No. The one post I wrote made me feel uncomfortable, and the one I was writing was way too heavy and personal to get posted. I hope nobody minds. The newer posts will be closers to this one: A yap with a theme. I guess blog posts will also serve as more structured life updates (which got replaced by blog updates). V – Future of this blog. I’ll keep it online and will try my best to keep updating it. At the very least, the art gallery section of it motivates me to create more, which I should do. Even if music on Linux is a pain. I switched back pretty recently, after my latest music project was done. Up until now, I was making music on Windows. But I’ll try to keep making blog posts as well. I promise, I have a lot of things I could write about, a lot of thoughts that go unheard. I also started a personal journal quite recently, so that may help me pin some of them down. Either way, I’m very happy to be back on this blog. See you soon!
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